Reflection: You can do it.
I'm not sure what your "what" is, but I am sure of one thing, you CAN do it.
Have you been asking yourself lately, "What is going on," and not just from a global and national standpoint but also personally and professionally? It's hard to keep up with myself let alone the rest of the world but somehow here we are, carrying on.
2020 has been a trip for most of us and maybe some more than others. I know for me this year has really shed some light on things I probably would have never addressed if it wasn't for these experiences.
Throughout all of this, I have found I was made for the simple life. To enjoy the little things and REALLY appreciate them. I have come to the conclusion, life is stressful and for that reason, there is no need for added stress. I have learned that I need to control the stresses that I can, and not add to the stress that already exists outside of my control. Change. It's bittersweet.
2018: we sold our house in Minnesota.
We bought land
made plans to build our forever home.
2019: Sold that land.
Moved to Arizona.
Started new jobs.
Rented a tiny 1,100 square foot AirBNB for a family of 4
Moved into our Arizona home.
Almost lost our daughter.
Sold our Arizona home.
Move across the country, again.
Find new jobs, again.
Find a new place to live, again.
& I'm still married, can you believe it?! That part is a joke, kind of ;) It has been less than 2 years for all of this to take place. I don't know what mountains you're facing, but I know you can move them. It might take every single ounce of your being, but you can do it. There are days, and days on end I am living on auto-pilot. I'm just living through the day and I am not sure how, it's just automatic. Maybe you are too and that's OK. Not every day will be that way. But until it's not, do what you need to do and move your mountain.
I didn't know I was built for all of this. In fact, if you would have told me that's what selling our home in 2018 was going to look like, I would have responded kindly with a "No, thank you." I'll take the usual.
I have no idea what i'm doing. Let's make that clear. BUT, I am sure glad I do it. There is SO MUCH FREEDOM in just knowing you can do something HARD, really HARD. Even if it doesn't seem like a win, you can at the very least say you tried which, believe it or not, is more than MOST people can say. So try, TRY AWAY, and keep trying until something sticks, because there is no shame in trying. When we were moving from everything we knew in Minnesota to Arizona where we had close to nothing, everyone said "I couldn't do that." But they could, and they can. And you could and you can, it's all just mindset. You put your head down and you just go. You just do, until there is nothing left to do and you're on the other side. You look up and you have no idea how you did it, you just know you did. Not everyone is made to move across the country. But everyone is made to do hard things. Anything outside of your norm is hard, and everyone is made to go outside of their norm. Don't order "the usual" every day. Take a chance, take the road less traveled, do something you think you can't, because there is freedom knowing you can.
These past 2 years have not only given me the freedom of knowing I can do it, but they have also showed me, I don't have to. I know that sounds contradicting but after I have continuously proven myself to do so many hard things, I know when to say no. I know that I can, but I don't have to prove that to anyone or myself anymore. The last two years and all that happened, has completely changed the trajectory of my life and I DID THAT. You have that same power too.
I'm not out of the woods yet, but I like to think I am half way.